A Divine Download

Here is an excerpt from Chapter 1, Magdalene Messages, in The Magdalene Path. This was my introduction to Magdalene and pointed towards my role and hinted at the direction the project was meant to take. Here’s how this Divine Download unfolded:

In the winter of 2007 and 2008, I’d been going through a spell of malaise—an old familiar funk that centered on feeling adrift in my life. I longed to know who I really was and what I came to be/do in this lifetime. From the outside, my life looked pretty good, but inside I knew there was more. I just couldn’t figure out what that was. I had a gnawing sense that there was something I was supposed to be doing. It felt close, and yet it eluded me.

So I centered myself, through my morning meditation and prayers, to ask Spirit for guidance and direction about the coming year. I made a cup of tea and settled into my chair. I started by slowing my breath, attempting to still my busy mind for 20 minutes or so in order to connect with my inner being. My Spirit guidance team (angels, Divine beings and ancestors) came immediately, as they always do when I remember to use this practice. Speaking as a collective group, they encouraged me to go into the practice I call Listening. Here is what they shared:

Spirit: You have not yet stopped long enough to let us in. You may not yet understand the grace we offer you and how it will increase the ease of your work life. You work harder than you must because you are afraid to let go. There is more ease and flow available when you allow the Divine in to the planning and execution of your day. In other words, allow time and space for Spirit to be with you. A regular, even casual period of sitting, relaxing, and listening will benefit you immensely.

In deeper Listening, you can hear the suggestions that can allow you to manifest in a more physical, tangible way into the world. Be confident of your ability to receive guidance from us. Your fear itself serves as a strong block to the flow of your reception. As your overall resistance to Listening decreases, you will find greater success and enjoyment. The one called the Magdalene wishes to speak with you and share her wisdom and energy.

Mary Magdalene: Greetings, shining guardian of the mysteries, keeper of secrets of The Way. We (your soul guidance team) delight by the recent interest in my story. It is the oldest tale of neglect and betrayal – centuries of denying my presence, accomplishment, and stature by those in power. This developed into a bigger wound to humanity than the loss of my personal “herstory;” it resulted in a deep dishonoring and discounting of the feminine, experienced by all women for millennia. In this we misplaced the balance of power between Jesus the Christ and myself, The Magdalene.

This was a magnificent and supreme experience – one we are coming back around to 2000 years later. This is a huge loss, for it has sorely upset the balance and dynamic between the masculine and feminine principles. But I am getting ahead of myself.

What I want to convey to you is my immense pleasure. Overjoyed I am at the opportunity to present myself to you. You have held onto the thread of the story throughout. It is becoming ever clearer to you why it might be important to do so. There is information that was damaged or seriously misconstrued that needs to be set right.

The fields of your culture will lay fallow and barren while the Goddess bride is cast out of the Divine marriage. The Holy Pair is torn apart. The bridegroom, the Christian’s male God, can only hold his half. The effect is apparent in your land, in spite of “expert” testimony to the contrary. Life is uneven and out of balance. It is no longer working. It is far easier and more convenient to be in denial. There is work to be done in bringing balance back to the masculine and feminine. Harmony is in the process of being restored.

Your part is to sit and listen, to receive and convey. Trust the process; it will reveal itself as it unfolds. I have waited a long time for this moment, for this return to my rightful place in the understanding of humanity. Not for my ego’s sake, though yes, it is hard to endure 2000 years (two millennia), of misunderstanding, soiled reputation, and general “bad publicity.” I was never a “fallen woman”, nor did I have devils within me. I was a priestess, healer and leader, which was far more dangerous, to some. More on that in a moment.

I come now for the truth to become known and for the story of Christ to be lived. Worship of one man was never the intention. It is a turn in the path. He was like God, of God, but that does not mean he is God, any more than you or I. This is jumping ahead to a tale for another day.

Afterward, I felt uplifted by this transmission. I was relieved and delighted to get some direction, and yet anxieties filled my busy mind. What if, this and that. I thought, “Is this really happening to me?” I knew I wasn’t making it up. The guidance I heard felt clear and accurate. (And I certainly wouldn’t have thought of those things on my own.) I wondered if I could carry out her direction. I had concerns about my ability to do this “life purpose project” – I wasn’t an expert. I worried about whether I’d have anything new to add to what’s been written about Mary Magdalene or the Divine Feminine. Yet the urging was consistent. I only knew one thing: I was supposed to pray, connect, and write.

At moments I embraced her guidance, but just as often I got distracted by my own fears and concerns. Somehow I was supposed to imbue this knowledge so that I could awaken the world to the presence of the Divine Feminine? That seemed like a tall order, but I was intrigued and curious.